Bringing it back to my new normal

      Finally able to update the blogs.... Finally stopping this annoying "writers block" excuse to not put down some words. Whether those words are meant for a book or have no meaning at all, it does not matter. I have to write, I have to do the things that I am most passionate about in life.
     So... life update just really quickly: got married, moved to a new town, got a dog. Of course all of these things will reflect in my writing, especially the marriage part. My husband is my biggest supporter of my writing. He is the best when it comes to pushing me towards the things I really want to do. So he will most definantly be an impact in everything I write from now on.
     I just found an article today online about a local magazine that lets local writers submit short articles, I am contemplating submitting something. I am just not so sure what yet. I also realized today that my blogs always seem short, and that I am somewhat better at writing short works rather than long drawn out ones.  
     Maybe this is the reason my novel has never been finished, and why it sits idly collecting dust rather than more words. I am worried that I may never finish it, but now that I have my moxy back.... Maybe, just maybe I can muster the courage and faith to finish a great book. I do have rather large plans for that book, if and when I finish it. The characters have been playing out their lives in my head for about three years now, the story has changed several times as the plot thickens like jello left over night. (Ha, just had to add a little visual aid.)
     Random change of subject as I draw a blank, but want to continue practicing getting words on paper (metaphorically speaking). I suck at technology. I bought a computer game today, I have never been much of a gamer, but I thought that I might give it a try. The problem isn't with the game though. The problem is that I can not seem to install the game. I also can not figure out what the problem is. This will all be solved tomorrow when I return the game to the store, because I feel like it was a foolish idea to try something new. I am sure that many people have experienced that feeling before, although they probably did not experience it due to a computer game.
     Wow, feeling a bit more productive today then I did yesterday when it comes to my writing. I can not actually remember the last time I blogged, much less wrote. I know that I was writing poetry a few weeks ago, but I am not sure where that went. And even that writing was completely spur of the moment, probably jotted down on a random napkin or scratch piece of paper.
       Having a bunch of random thoughts running out of my head and into the computer's keyboard is a strange yet familiar feeling which I miss greatly. I am very glad I took a moment just to update, just to acknowledge words on a page, whether that be web based or paper.

As life continues to grow, As time continues to fly...

As life continues to grow, As time continues to fly...
I miss you.
Its not just that I wish you were here, or that I wish I had never made this choice on my own.
This choice was never supposed to impact our relationship like it has.
Its my fault.
All my fault.
I should pay better  attention before I loose you too.
This won't be over soon enough for me not to have melancholy emotions about us.
I am ready for my big change, pulling up the big girl pants and pretending it is all ok, is not working.
I have tainted many things that I never expected would be tainted. And this can probably relate to most relationships I have.
I miss my parents, I miss my siblings, I miss my friends, and more than almost all of that I miss him.
I honestly have no idea how he copes with this. He is in my every thought now, and without him...
well I would need a lot of morphine to not go into that deep dark hole, I know I put myself in.
I think that it is most definantly time to graduate already.
A year and a half will be too long, too far from home.
The reason I did this is no longer valid.
I am sorry.

So this is christmas....

Christmas is meant for a time to stop and recognize and celebrate the birth of Christ our Lord and Savior. But sometimes people use this time to glorify themselves, bring others down, and just be scrooge. This is the season of giving, caring abou others, and loving family members, not just ignoring, stnewalling, or making rude comments/statements.
I saw a little boy with his parents in Target last night and the father was yelling and scolding his on for being happy and rejoicing that there were gifts under their tree. I watched them for a bit because I was looking for a gift in the same area they were in. I found this situation sad and depressing. Can we not all love each other? It doesn't matter wat this year has brought, what has happened recently or in the past, if you are with your family this holiday season be light hearted rejoice! God has put blessings in your path, recognize them and thank Him for them! He does these things fr us, although we are sinners (all sins are equal) and we were the reason that the baby who's birth that we celebrate in 2 days had to die on a cross 2012 years ago. He still loves us after we lie, cheat, and do other sins. Please remember these things this season! 

Vent

Hello Dear Readers (all 3 of you),
I hope everyone is doing well and life is wonderful. I am blogging at 12:19 am because I am frustrated with the people who were my friends at home, who act friendly when I see them but dont acknowledge my existance when I am here. Hmm... sounds like what happened to my brother. I give him props for dropping these folks a long time ago. Also because he does not have a fb and therefore has less drama in his blessed life. Maybe I should take heed to what he has done and follow suit? Yes I will keep my blog! Always!! It helps me focus, calm down, and relax.
Anyways, I just needed to say something more than what I tweeted, Goodnight!!
Love,
Eliza

Setin in an almost empty class

Today... well its not even 10am and I am already sweaty, so yay! I am praying that this busy day goes well and that everything goes as planned. Class, class, lunch, oil change, school work, church, college group, more school work until around 12am at which time I will lay down in my big comfy bed and fall asleep just to wake up a few hours later and go to more classes.
Yesterday I had a suprise on my way to class that made me want to scream in pain and just go home. I have a blister on the bottom of my foot that popped. All of a sudden I had water all in my flip flop, I didn't step in water, and as I looked down while continuing to walk the pain began. Oh joy!
Well, that's the outrageous story for today, more later!
Love,
Eliza

So here i am

Hello.... sorry its been a while. I have been so busy with school and litterally have only had time to eat sleep school talk to my bf. Ready for Friday when I get a short break bu I gotta make sure my school work is done before. I have had a time trying to get some volunteer work for classes. I hope everyone else is having a better start to school than I am. Can I graduate already? Please so I can move on with my life. What may be on my horizon idk... apt of my own, my kitten back, career, marriage, babies? Idk I am just ready for my life to start, since I have been stuck in school since fall 06. Its time, u kno? Like that moment... really semester that I want to jump off the cliff to find myself in the future.
Sleep time, more later, love
Eliza

Ahh

So here I am once again waiting for a class to open it door and let me in, except this time I am sweating up a storm. Icky! Not just glistening like females do. Of course I forgot my water bottle and of course I have no idea what I am gonna do with the hour in between classes. I am really ready for this semester to beover already and I am not really enjoying my class load. I miss momma, daddy and that wonderful man who has captured my heart.
Well the door just opened so more later!
Love Eliza